United Brachial Plexus Network, Inc.

I am so depressed all I can think about is that there is something wrong with my baby. My ultrasounds look good I have contracted gestational diabetes and my blood sugers are sooo high. The baby has not moved as much in the last two weeks. I don't know if I am just psyching myself out for the negative because of my first BPI child? I am just so tired of going to the doctor and him making me feel like I am some kind of cry baby. I call when I need things and don't always get calls back. I wish I could switch OB/GYN's but I am on disability from work due to cardiovascular problems and don't want to have to go through a whole new application program with a new doctor. I just wish it was over, yesterday I broke down and cried for like a half hour because I left some candles in my car and they all melted. My husband thinks I am going crazy! I think I am too, I just needed to vent only five weeks to go! Did any of you who had a 1st baby with BPI stress out on number 2? I can't eat sleep or function, I am always thinking that because I am damaged I will only make damaged children. I am sure this sounds so bad but like everything else I will work through it and be okay. Maybe it is just pregnancy hormones!

Hang in there only a few weeks to go. I am sure you are just scared and I don't blame you...

I am my mothers only child with injury... Just because your first child was injured does not mean all your children will be. Have you spoke to your doctor about SD and what he will do to prevent injury?

Talk to him and tell him of your fears... and remember you did not injure your baby... it is not your fault. I hope you will find some peace and begin to feel better soon.
Kath

Hailey's Mom
I think that most probably ALL mothers feel scared/worried/stressed/frightened when they are having their second baby and you have even more reason to feel this way - I admire you so much for having a baby after a SD/bpi baby, I think it takes such a lot of courage to have another baby after a traumatic event.
I am sure that if your diabetes is not really under control that may make you feel a little down too.
Hang in there as Kath says - think of how proud you will be, showing off your new baby and all the love and joy it will bring.
When I was having my second son Gavin (12 yrs robpi)
I was VERY depressed at the end of my pregnancy - in fact I threatened that if my ob/gyn didn't induce delivery at term, I would kill myself - it sounds VERY melodramatic now, but I can assure you, I felt so low and so bad that I thought death would be a release and a great rest for me.
I hope this reassures you just a little that someone out here understands what you are feeling and what you are going through - even just a little
God Bless you and keep you safe and well and also your lovely precious baby too.
Karen

I think your feelings are normal. And just by way of encouragement, if you are stressed out over the OB situation, it's NOT too late to change doctors, and it's not that complicated to do, either. I switched doctors in my eighth month because of a similar situation to yours, and I got a great high-risk OB who listened to all my fears about having another BPI baby and gave me great care. The baby was born with no injury via C-section.
Hang in there. I'll be praying for you and your precious little angel.