Thankyou for your prayers
Posted: Thu Mar 04, 2004 6:07 pm
I felt a little better today, stronger. I am convinced the prayers are helping me deal with this.
I went to an interview today, an admin assistant job, just 10 hours a week. Its for a voluntary organisation who coordinate transport for those in isolation. I did not get the job, but they called me to say i would be wasting my talent & enthusiasm, and they all felt I should be working out there promoting and campaigning, rather than just typing. they told me to keep looking for such a post.
I held it together for a 2 hour interview, I am proud of myself today.
I am not sad I applied, or that I did not get the job (someone with better IT skills got it), this has been a boost. I did not want to go when we had the news earlier this week. Glad I did.
I have my first hurdle to jump tomorrow. My brother-in-law only went & told his kids, they are the same age as mine.
I have decided my kids do not need to know, and felt it best to break it to them as we meet the challenges, starting with the point when Josh has calipers.
this is the way I am trying to view it, I will face the problems as they arise. But now the cousins want to come visit their dying cousin Josh. They were asking if hes in a wheelchair yet, and how long he has left.
I am going to talk with them tomorrow, I want to explain things from a different view:
Josh has always had this condition, he has not suddenly got ill. It affects the way he walks and runs, but that is as it always was.
I may explain that some kids with this are in wheelchairs, but is Josh? No.
I want them to forget the name, if they know it, I may refer to it as a muscle enzyme problem, most outsiders would not know this means Muscular Dystrophy.
I will also talk about their grandfather, who is in his 60's with multiple sclerosis. I will say many peolpe with that are in wheelchairs, I feared that would hapen to him too, but is he in a wheelchair? No.
I hope they will think that this really is of little significance, so not worth mentioning to my kids, but I may repeat parts of this conversation with my kids.
GULP, I hadn't thought i would have to face this just yet, but I am looking at it as practice. I do not want my kids to know the pain, they need a childhood filled with as much laughter as possible.
Pray for strength in dealing with this all, it's the first challenge of many.
Thankyou for being there. Sorry it's such a long post.
Love and blessings to you and yours.
Pauline
I went to an interview today, an admin assistant job, just 10 hours a week. Its for a voluntary organisation who coordinate transport for those in isolation. I did not get the job, but they called me to say i would be wasting my talent & enthusiasm, and they all felt I should be working out there promoting and campaigning, rather than just typing. they told me to keep looking for such a post.
I held it together for a 2 hour interview, I am proud of myself today.
I am not sad I applied, or that I did not get the job (someone with better IT skills got it), this has been a boost. I did not want to go when we had the news earlier this week. Glad I did.
I have my first hurdle to jump tomorrow. My brother-in-law only went & told his kids, they are the same age as mine.
I have decided my kids do not need to know, and felt it best to break it to them as we meet the challenges, starting with the point when Josh has calipers.
this is the way I am trying to view it, I will face the problems as they arise. But now the cousins want to come visit their dying cousin Josh. They were asking if hes in a wheelchair yet, and how long he has left.
I am going to talk with them tomorrow, I want to explain things from a different view:
Josh has always had this condition, he has not suddenly got ill. It affects the way he walks and runs, but that is as it always was.
I may explain that some kids with this are in wheelchairs, but is Josh? No.
I want them to forget the name, if they know it, I may refer to it as a muscle enzyme problem, most outsiders would not know this means Muscular Dystrophy.
I will also talk about their grandfather, who is in his 60's with multiple sclerosis. I will say many peolpe with that are in wheelchairs, I feared that would hapen to him too, but is he in a wheelchair? No.
I hope they will think that this really is of little significance, so not worth mentioning to my kids, but I may repeat parts of this conversation with my kids.
GULP, I hadn't thought i would have to face this just yet, but I am looking at it as practice. I do not want my kids to know the pain, they need a childhood filled with as much laughter as possible.
Pray for strength in dealing with this all, it's the first challenge of many.
Thankyou for being there. Sorry it's such a long post.
Love and blessings to you and yours.
Pauline