Re: It helps me handle the pain when the drugs don't work
Posted: Tue Feb 10, 2004 10:27 am
NICE one Jamey...guess we all have a name for this faceless bluddy pain that can rule our lives...if we let it...my name for it is unusable on here...the good people who run these boards would have banned in a blink of an eye if I posted it!! but I'm sure anyone could guess it. It can help enourmously to name the enemy...at least then you have some 'real' thing to concentrate on.
I see it as a wolf who sleeps just outside of my conciousness...ready to get rabid and angry at the slightest provocation or when it gets hungry. Sometimes, it just paces around looking for a reason to howl and break into my life, other times it rears up slavering and rabid without needing a reason.
It took me a while to get a collar on this wolf, and now it also has a chain attached to that collar, and I can yank it anytime the beast gets too noisy...yes..I am in control, no matter how often it bites or snarls...one good yank on that chain teaches it who's the boss.
I guess it will never really go away, but it's under control; long may it last. Like you say in the poem, without me, my little/not so little friend wouldn't exist. With me it does, but under my terms...
Well done James....food for thought alright...
Take care
Lizzy B
I see it as a wolf who sleeps just outside of my conciousness...ready to get rabid and angry at the slightest provocation or when it gets hungry. Sometimes, it just paces around looking for a reason to howl and break into my life, other times it rears up slavering and rabid without needing a reason.
It took me a while to get a collar on this wolf, and now it also has a chain attached to that collar, and I can yank it anytime the beast gets too noisy...yes..I am in control, no matter how often it bites or snarls...one good yank on that chain teaches it who's the boss.
I guess it will never really go away, but it's under control; long may it last. Like you say in the poem, without me, my little/not so little friend wouldn't exist. With me it does, but under my terms...
Well done James....food for thought alright...
Take care
Lizzy B