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I don't know if it is just a certain time period why I am feeling this way but I am incredibly fed up with my arm and hand being "unusable". I know that it hasn't been long for me and there are those of you whom have been dealing with your injury for months, even years now and here I am, fed up already. Well I am. It has been the past week whereby I have noticed a change in my energy, motivation, moods and attitude. I go and see the specialist tomorrow, you would think I would be happy. Well I am scared, uptight and very worried about the outcome. I went to work on Saturday night, the first time since this injury and I felt awful at work. It really depressed me because it made me realize more what I CANNOT do. Have any of you gone through a "slump" period during your hopeful recovery period. At least that is one thing I have left...... my hope. Thanks, Karen

Karen,
My slumps seem to com eand go like crazy! I just recently asked my doctor for anti- depressants. We talked about it and he gave me some to try. I thought thaty were helping but now I am back to the bottom! I know that for me the weather doesnt help at all!!! Its getting very cold here in MI and I HATE winter! I have been thinking about seeing someone to talk about my issues too but we shall see, I keep avoiding that too! I am two and a half years past the injury. DOnt get me wrong, I have those days, weeks, even months sometimes that are GREAT and you would never know that I had this stupid arm! Keep your head high! This too will pass!! Keep posting, we are all here for each other!!!!!!! Hugs!
Courtney

Hi Courtney,

Thanks for the up-lift. I too have been put on anti-depressants about 5 weeks ago and was feeling pretty good. About a week ago my GP upped my dosage 25 mgs and I seem to have gone right down hill again. Maybe it's a coincidence but all I know is that I feel like S@#T!!!! And I am very angry. I know where my anger issues stem from too and that is something I need to address as well. As you said "This too will pass", I sure hope so. There is that word "hope" again. Talk to you soon and hugs back to you too.
Karen

HEy Karen what anti are you taking? I need a new one!! Its sad to say but isnt it nice to know that you are not alone in these feelings!?
Courtney

Hey, I'm taking Zoloft 75mg. I was taking 50mg and like I said she put me up to 75mg. She eventually wants to put me to 100 mgs. The 50 mgs. were just fine with me. I felt like I was on an even keel, not all over the place with my thoughts. But now.... it's a different story. "hopefully" this is short term. I have no side affects like I've heard a lot of them do. Zoloft has been great for me. Talk to your doc about it. Talk to you soon. Karen

THANKS a bunch KAren!

The first few months were the absolute worst for me. I really missed my arm. I felt sad a lot of the time too. When I first started reading these boards, that was about 3 months after my accident, I thought my God, these people are not only crazy, they are absolutely friggen mad! Talking about not missing their arm, going through the whole day NOT CONSCIOUSLY REALIZING THEY DIDN'T HAVE USE OF BOTH ARMS. How they could do this and that and getting along quite nicely too!(you know who you lunatics are out there so I won't name names,). I could not believe what I was reading. There was no way I would ever get to the point of not missing that damn arm! Well Karen, I too am now a raving lunatic. I go through some days, well almost the whole day the same way. Not giving a second thought on how to get things done, I just do them, differently than before, but they do get done for the most part. I hope you get over the sadness, good luck tomorrow.
Best wishes,
Allison from Friendly Manitoba.

Hi Allison, Yes, I find it very difficult, especially this past week to accept this injury. At first it wasn't as hard because I thought my fingers would start moving and my elbow would bend. But now time is passing and still nothing. Reality is creeping in and I am angry about it and very depressed. Now with my appt. tomorrow I am so afraid of the news because he is the REAL guy who will tell me the REAL truth about the recovery. I miss my arm and hand and fingers so much. I miss hugging my loved ones with two arms. There is so much I miss. I just pray that the news will be promising. Thanks a bunch. I'll be back with the news. Karen

Hey Girls~
I think your all pretty new to this injury, I'm the old lady here (only in injury-16 yrs BPI and only 34 yrs old) I have NOW lived half my life like this....scarey when I put it that way. I have finally excepted it. Its gone and its not coming back. I look at videos of my cheerleading competitions, my track meets and prom with my strapless dress on and YEP, I cry my eyes out. I just found this board about 2 months ago and some people hate their lives and hate the world but we've got to stick together and keep each other going. It gets better and that doesn't help much now to hear but it does. I miss wearing sleevless tops, doing a cartwheel with my daughters and son, teaching them to dive in the pool, hammering a nail in the wall....I could on and on. Its okay to be mad and depressed (I am at times) but we have one life here and we've got to make the best of it. We could do a girls wkend away! If we keep each other going and give good postive advice we'll be happy.
I hope I helped :0)
Kath

Kath,
I think a girls weekend away sounds GREAT! Lets keep thinking about that and see who can/ wants to go and where! I really could use a get away! Anyone else interested? Any guys even maybe?
COurtney