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Thoughts & prayers needed PLEASE!!!!!!!
Posted: Wed Jun 26, 2002 11:19 pm
by Karrie -- Md.
I feel like I am losing faith here and I don't like it. Once again I seem to be being tested by the man upstairs and I can't seem to figure out why. I am not a bad person, but it seems like in the last year I have constantly been thrown a curve. Let me explain my feelings. Most of you know that my son Kyle's trial started Monday. Well that has been going OK, I guess. It has been a very stressful and emotional time dealing with that. But as if that wasn't hard enough to deal with, my older son's car was broken into on Tues. and his brand new CD player we got him for his B-day along with some CD's was stolen. OK, those are material things they can be replaced, but it angers me so much that someone would do that. So now we move onto today, Wed. I come home from being in court all day to find my beloved shepard/retriever mix dog of 6 years dead. I am sooooo sad about losing her. This couldn't have come at a worse time. I feel like I will not be able to grieve for her properly because I am dealing with the trial. I am going to really miss her as will Kyle. She used to love to run around the back yard with him. To top everything off....I was pulled over by a cop on my way taking her body to the vets. I think the cop felt sorry for me....my emotions could just not take anymore so here I was bawling my eyes out telling him the whole story of how my week has been. So he only gave me a warning, thankfully. I just pulled over into a vacant lot and cried and cried. I am just so tired and emotionally drained. I am afraid to go to sleep and get up tomorrow. I'm fearful of what else could go wrong. I honestly do not know if I could handle anything else and we still have to finish Kyle's trial. I really feel like I am losing my sanity and headed for an emotional break down. God help that doctor if we lose our case. I'm afraid of what I might do. I have never been a negative person, but I am feeling so angry, hurt and so sad right now, I just don't like the way everything is making me feel. I'm sorry this is so long. Thank you all for letting me come here for support. I know I can count on you all. Please say a prayer for me and my family that things will get better soon. Thanks, and I will let you know about the outcome of Kyle's trial. Say a prayer for that too. Thank you again.
Karrie
Re: Thoughts & prayers needed PLEASE!!!!!!!
Posted: Wed Jun 26, 2002 11:27 pm
by carron
Karrie I will be thinking and praying for you all. I know how times can get you down and you wonder when will all this mess end. I still do. But some how a ray of sunshine comes back into my life to keeps me going. I hope all goes well with court. Just know I am thinking of you.
Re: Thoughts & prayers needed PLEASE!!!!!!!
Posted: Wed Jun 26, 2002 11:46 pm
by lesleyjane
Karrie-Just wanted to let you know how sorry I am to hear about how your week has been going. I look at it this way everything happens for a reason. Where do you live again, I forgot? Are you looking to get another dog? If you are looking to get another dog let me know, I know we probably do not live close to one another but I can figure out something, because we have 4 Boxer Puppies, 3-Males and 1-Female, they are so cute. The reason I mention we have puppies is because we have to move out of the place we live in are looking to find people who would like one so we do not have to move with them. You and your family will be in our thoughts and prayers. Just remember everything will get better in the end. Danielle Lesley Jane' Mom
Re: Thoughts & prayers needed PLEASE!!!!!!!
Posted: Thu Jun 27, 2002 12:13 am
by Jallie
Wow Karrie that is a crappy week. Keep your faith, these things have a way of working out. I can really relate to your feelings. Our dog is 9 1/2 and all of a sudden is showing signs of fast aging, it really has me sad to think this member of our family may pass soon. We also just ended our long term (4 yr.) court battle, and it's a very emotional time. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Julie Wolfgram
Re: Thoughts & prayers needed PLEASE!!!!!!!
Posted: Thu Jun 27, 2002 2:40 am
by marymom
prayers of strength and happines and safety surrounding and enfolding you- supporting you, part of you, as you travel the path you are on.
Best wishes Karrie, things will be better soon.
Re: Thoughts & prayers needed PLEASE!!!!!!!
Posted: Thu Jun 27, 2002 3:12 am
by DeShawn
Karrie,
At times like this it can be really hard to find the right words. I am sorry that you are having such a difficult time right now. Your family will be in my thoughts and prayers, hoping that you find the strength and needed comfort. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. Keep your head up, knowing that we are all here for you. Take care,
DeShawn
Re: Thoughts & prayers needed PLEASE!!!!!!!
Posted: Thu Jun 27, 2002 8:45 am
by admin
Karrie,
I can definitely relate and feel your pain and emotions. We had to put our 13 year old dog Trixie to sleep the morning we left for my daughter's primary surgery. I also felt that I didn't have time to grieve because I had to concentrate on my daughter's surgery. I decided to have my dog cremated and got her ashes back. I then bought a little stone marker and a large glass jar that I could put the tin of ashes and her favorite teddy bear in and then bury it in her favorite spot to lay out back of our house. I still haven't found the time to bury the jar yet and it has been a year now, but I will soon. I wanted to give her the attention that I felt she deserved once things settled down with my daughter. Please know that we are all thinking of you and feel your pain and are hear to listen. Just remember no matter what the outcome of the trial, you are doing all that you can for your son and can hold your head up when you tell him about everything when he is old enough to understand. Unfortunately all things in life are not fair (which I am reminded of every day!) but we must look for the brightness in our lives (our children) or we will be overcome with the grief. Keep your head up and lean on us if you need to!
Julie
Re: Thoughts & prayers needed PLEASE!!!!!!!
Posted: Thu Jun 27, 2002 10:01 am
by CW1992
I hope that the thoughts and prayers we all are sending you give you and your family strength at this very emotional time. I'm sorry you're having to deal with so much - and all at once.
You will get through this!
Christy
Re: Thoughts & prayers needed PLEASE!!!!!!!
Posted: Thu Jun 27, 2002 11:37 am
by francine
Karrie - I feel your pain and your grief and your feelings of insanity all together in one big ball. May God give you the strength and endurance to get through all of this. We are all surrounding you with our love and our support. We are there in the courtroom sitting right behind you. We are here for you now. You will get through this.
love,
francine
Re: Thoughts & prayers needed PLEASE!!!!!!!
Posted: Thu Jun 27, 2002 12:52 pm
by admin
Somedays it feels like we have the weight of the world on our shoulders. So instead of taking it one day at a time, take a deep breath and take one hour at a time. I know how you must feel about your dog, we are in the process of putting our thirteen year old Akita to sleep. I know it's going to be a very difficult day, but she is in so much pain. Its always hard to lose a pet, they are the ones that don't talk back to you. You'll get through all this, it just takes time. Have faith in yourself. Take Care. Dawn