cutting out the pain

[marian]

im starting to get more and more pain in my sholder gap but usully only after i run. the most pain is mental pain, i just cant get over teh fact that its been almost two years and im still injered. I am very greatfull and thank god everyday for how much i did recoverd but im still not the orginal me. most of teh time it doesnt bother me, but some days it just hits me and the reality starts to sink in. being with my friends alwasy seems to help. i remember reading stuff about marajuaana to help ease the pain, but i aslo heard that smoking marajauna actually destroys your chances of neve recovery. (is that true?) like it stops your nerve regrowth. i still think of my self as an athleate and know how bad smoking can be so would never go down that path, but lately it seems that, that is teh only path left.