A copy/paste of what I typed in my livejournal post. http://wazza.livejournal.com for reference if people want to add me etc
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Well I've just had a total of 80mg Oxycontin in 4-5 hours. Even rode my motorbike for 20-30 minutes on 40mg cause I was feeling no effects. So far I'm 'just' starting to feel ok, pain is evident in my upper arm/shoulder area but I'm definitely not feeling stuff that could be considered as recreational fun. I did feel a tiny bit floaty for like 10-20 minutes an hour or so ago but I came back to baseline mind feeling with a bit of the oxycontin pain relief. Not exactly sure how much relief I'm getting as I was just starting to feel sore when I took it as opposed to being in (strong) pain then taking it. Hoping it's providing pain relief as I can just feel some pain still but it isn't 'hurting' me so to speak but it is still slightly annoying.
I'd like to be in a state of (semi) bliss again at least feeling pain free and if I had to 'take one for the team', I'd not mind feeling an opiate HIGH from it
But alas, it's almost all systems are running as normal with a bit of pain happening. I told Ben I honestly felt I could ride my bike in traffic, wouldn't lane split but I'm not going to ride any more today unless I am totally baseline feeling FOR SURE later this evening or tonight.*Thumbs down for my natural high tolerance* (and for people not in the know, I have never recreationly taken opiates (Heroin, oxycontin etc) in my life which a couple doctors did ask last year when my naturally high tolerance to it was evident after my initial surgery. Taking a 'bucketload' daily and I was feeling an opiate high + pain relief but I definitely was not fucked from it so to speak and one doctor said I was taking enough to knock a horse down. heh. The good news is there is no ceiling dose of oxycontin http://www.painlab.com/focus_oxycontin.htm for reading info, I just have to convince/get my G.P to believe that and see if we can get more for me. Most doctors who don't specialise in pain relief think this THE DEVILS DRUG (bad withdrawls, addiction blah blah) but from my 12 months of on and off research, it shows people with the genuine need for this, more so people with the same/similar injury I have, anecdotal reports show that they were taking LOADS AND LOADS of oxycontin, it provided good pain relief where most/all other pain relief failed and I distinctly recall reading cases of people being on daily high use for 2+ years came off using it "fairly easy" of only 1-6 weeks of weening down the dose until it was stopped. As these people had the same injury type I have.
I have an appointment with my local GP at noon tomorrow so wish me luck people for getting the GP to recognise the genuine need I have for a higher dose (I was only initially prescribed 30-40mg of instant relief oxycontin a day, 4 days later I talked to the GP and got 40mg of time release (12 hours) of 20mg X 2 daily which provided fantastic relief (without a high) for 2-3 days and then tolerance started to get kick in and now I'm up to having 100mg+ daily (2 days in a row) with stuff all opiate high effects but I was getting pain relief as I'm not in agony now whereas I was last week + before. I can't see the pain relief specialist until April as he is one booked out guy and 3-6 weeks is always needed before I can get in to see him.
Signed
One hopeful Wazza (I wanna either have no pain and/or get high from this for once in my current situation
)12 months of 24/7 strong pain basically is starting to peeve me off from time to time.... For once I publicly say, people put yourself in my position, how would YOU FEEL?? I don't ask for pity often but I am at present!!! I really want to be feeling (relatively) pain free for my birthday on the 29th. I was feeling great a week or so ago for a few days and wham, bam, thank you maam, I'm in agony again. grrr I'm at the stage again where I mentally feel not many people give a flying fuck even through some friends actions counteract those thoughts but others reinforce it. Life, gotta put up with this at moment.To all I have dragged down emotionally with this post, I'm kinda sorry but I'm kinda not as I NEED a 'public' release of my current feelings at times, this is one of them.
