The hardest part about being a mom
Is thinking about what you think you've done wrong
When do you just let nature take it's course
When do we turn to God for the source
Surgery I've opted because I though my daughter would want me to
But sometimes I think was it the right thing to do
Now here we are again with another surgery ahead
My heart is breaking and my brain is dead
There is a place inside you with a little flickering light
You don't know it's there until it washes your sight white
The monumnetal feeling from somewhere so deep
It must come from making the woman to mother leap
The tears I cry are like none that I have before
Tears over boyfriends and jobs lost, I've closed that door
I can't seem to get a grip sitting here late at night
But tomorrow I will pull myself together for my daughter's fight
I write these words so tangled in my head
Another day with this injury I truly dread
The hardest part about being a mom
is finding the words for a love so strong
Needed to write
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You really found the words. Thanks for sharing
Kath
Kath
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Thank you for sharing your thoughts here. I'm not sure what you're referring to "what you think you've done wrong," but I hope that you can overcome those feelings of guilt. It is very difficult deciding when to let nature take it's course. I know that I keep going through that struggle in my mind. While there aren't clear right or wrong decisions, in my opinion, I hope that someday Nicole will be happy about the choices that we've made, not only in medical areas but also in all aspects of her life. I guess all I can do is try to keep a great relationship together as we have now and trust in God that things will workout whatever the outcome. It is amazing, isn't it -- the depth of our love for our children -- nothing I could ever have imagined before being a Mom. Thanks again for writing. -Tina 
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This is just unbelievable last night iwas REALLY emotional and just about everything that was in your poem was exactly what was going through my head. Thankyou!